Is there more than what you see

 Is there more than what you see.... For instant's when you look at any of Gods creations what do you see? Is it  just a tree, a rock or the sky, just nature running about? What about your pets are they just a dog, a cat, maybe a frog, or a fish? Then you look at  the people you meet everyday at schools, in the workplace, grocery stores, what do you see at the

several Dr's visits you maybe needing to have every week, months,  maybe even years, or at the several hospital visits you may need like me? What do you see when you see your neighbors, your friends,, your grandparents,  your parents, your brothers, yours sisters, a spouse, or your partner, a child or maybe is it the perfect bachelor life style?  What do you see, when you look at those that seem to have it all and their life seems to be complete, the perfect spouse, the perfect children, the perfect house on top of the hill, or the best vehicles, or the time and money to have THE vacation you have always wanted.

What about those that go to church every Sunday religiously? Or those that rarely or never show up to any religious functions , or those that do come but only now and then? Or the person that has to work a couple of jobs to barely make it, to keep the house on the hill? What do you know by looking at them?
Now how about those that go home to a loveless home, would you be able to tell? What if they have built an image that they now believe themselves? Or when a couple that is out in public with their  significant other and they treat them like they are the most important person in the world until they get home and everything changes, they are ignored and made to feel less than less, but all anyone see is a great couple. What would you see? Would you be able to see the child that feels so alone with no where to turn, that has tried to commit suicide and has given up all hope?  What do you see?

Yes, at times it is very easy to see that there is a problem, like the bum that begs on the streets dirty  smelling of urine, feces, booze and halitosis. How about the dirty and unkempt child. The missed behaved children. or those on the other side of the tracks, but this is not always so easy to tell, what about the person that sits alone at home wishing that someone would just notice that there is a problem, we have all learned to hide things deep in side.........

What about those that have an invisible disease like me? If I did not tell you what would you see?
For instants if you were to look at me, I would bet you would not really see the real me.....
Each one of us is so much more than just what you see...

Would you know that everyday is a challenge for me just to do the simples things that most have taken for granted, like just getting out of bed and ready for the day ahead, or going to the grocery store, and spending time with family and good friends takes so much out of me? Would you know that I blackout several time a day? That I'm so sick with vomiting and stuck in the bathroom, with GI issues on most days? Or how about the major brain fog? Or the severe pain that I have everyday, and how about the tremors that can be so violent that is scares even the strongest of strong are watching in fear. One minute I'm on the floor out cold and then I'm up cleaning myself off, to make myself presentable for whatever my lay ahead for me, still trying everyday to be there not only for myself, but for those that I care about and love, still trying to look as healthy and normal as anyone else? All I want to do is not be sick for just a day, an hour or even a few minutes without the reminder that I am sick with Dysautonomia. Or is that all you see, when you look at me?

Just a little glimpse

I'm not usually one to talk about myself, I'm usually very private person not really wanting the focus on me. This will become a good growing experience, as well as a sharing experience..... I believe if you put your mind to something, you can change many things, maybe not everything but many things  just by thinking differently about them....... For an example I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia/ POTS (postural orthostatic  tachycardia syndrome) in 2005 and it has been a very challenging and life changing experience, even though it is believed that I've had it most of my life, just recently it has progressed very quickly it seems... What was is no longer and I've had to think differently about everything,  and learn how to just keep moving forward......
I'm a thinker, If I have a problem, or a tough challenge, I look at it, pick it apart until I find the answer that is right for me. I have always had a way of working through and around some tough challenges..... I am a very deep person, I can ponder about things for hours trying to find a bigger meaning to them. I enjoy learning new things and growing philosophically, emotionally or be it spiritually...... 
I love tall trees.You know the ones that seem to touch the sky? The ones that have been there for years and have stood the test of time?  Especially the pine trees. No matter what the storm may bring, the rain, or winds and blizzards, they have stood the test of time.....
As we are approaching autumn it is one of my favorite times of the year. There's something about it that just says "I'm at home!" Maybe it's the warm colors, or the sense of family and friends coming together to celebrate their togetherness. The caramel apples, the warm Cinnamon and pumpkin spices smelled everywhere. The sense that someones arms are there, waiting to embrace you and welcome you in from the cold. Or is it just the hope that we will spend time together as a family, or with good friends and crate those memories that will warm you from the inside out, everytime you think of them?   
Wow, I guess I had more to say than I thought....